I don't want anyone defending me for this. A commenter has mentioned that I am an ex-con. I am. (I'm not positive if you can be an ex-con without being convicted of a felony but I don't want to get caught up in semantics, I have been convicted of crimes and have committed crimes that I wasn't convicted of)
I don't talk about this past of mine because I am ashamed of it. I made horrible choices, I hurt people and I hurt society. I was a bad person. I won't categorize the things I did as "mistakes" or try to justify them. There is no justification for the things I did or the person I was.
While I regret the things that I did, the only thing that I can do now is live my life the best I can in the eyes of Jesus, my family and society.
In fact, my past is part of the reason that I do what I do. It's my own personal restitution and a desire to make our society better.
I don't think that my past precludes me from speaking out against the evils and wrongs of society now, I think that it gives me a unique perspective. That I have to talk about this is further consequence for actions that I committed a long time ago and it's a good lesson. Actions do have consequences. Forever. People are accountable for their behavior. I accept that accountability and won't run from it.
As for my unique perspective, I understand the liberal mindset. It is the same mindset of a criminal. It is a lack of personal responsibility, no respect for life, no respect for authority, no respect for others. Liberals don't believe that a person can be a "bad person."
I do find it ironic that criminal alien supporters have jeered me when I tell them about how I've changed my life around. Some have even suggested that I should "be on their side" because of my past. They mock me for who I was while at the same time excusing people who are committing crimes today.
If I had been rehabilitated by a government program and I was speaking out in favor of social programs for criminals I would probably be hailed as some success story in the Fishwrapper. (they do those stories occasionaly)
Instead I speak out against the evils that I did and I'm ridiculed by democrats for it. I actually deserve the ridicule because of what I did but I still stand firm on my positions.
My positions against illegal aliens. (anyone else here used to hang out with them?) My positions on drugs. (let me help you, there is NO SUCH THING as "medical" marijuana) My positions about the traditional family. (feel free to go to any jail/prison and do a quick survey on how many of the inmates had married parents) My position of punishment for crime. (rehab doesn't work, someone has to want to change, until then LOCK THEM UP)
So, I understand completely if no one is reading my blog as of tomorrow. Or if you have less respect for me. (if you had any in the first place) Or if you think that I am a bad person. (I was but I don't consider myself one today)
So you can call me "ex-con" and I certainly won't argue with you. There is no comeback. All I can say is that I paid my debt to society under the law and continue to pay my debt to society under my concience (and other more tangible consquences) even today.
As a criminal I used to love the ACLU. As a Christian, a husband, a father and a contributing member of society I hate it.